The world as I see it.

1. Xtreme 4×4 and Powerblock.
2. Jellico, Tennessee.
3. Edelbrock.
4. Foose.
5. Tube Shark.
6. TJ, YJ, CJ.
7. Royal Purple.
8. More horsepower and less torque vs. less horsepower and more torque? Decisions, decisions.
9. 401 is a joke.
10. Engine 5/8 DOM.

1. My real friends—Amanda, Jaclyn, Trev, Angie, Suzie, Shelley, Barb. Thanks guys, you mean the world to me.
2. Eva Marie Attebury.
3. Loaded baked potato soup later tonight.
4. Rain on a Saturday afternoon.
5. Me and my MacBook on my couch.

1. Someone unexpected on Facebook.
2. Last night-good friends, good food and good conversation. (The food was dogs, jalepeno poppers, pasta salad, green bean caserole and potato salad-yummy!)
3. Tonight, more good friends, more good food and hopefully good conversation. I can’t forget to make baked beans to take over. I think we all may be gaining weight this week.
4. Accepting things I cannot change, but still not giving up hope.
5. Meaning exactly what I say.
6. Letting go of some things, but still holding on to others.
7. So far the summer is turning out pretty good. It’s not how I wanted it to be, but my true friends have made me smile lately.
8. Princess time this afternoon.
9. ESPN sometimes.
10. My dreams since July 2. Sometimes paralyzing, always emotional. Just about the time I think I have forgotten something, it comes to me in my sleep.
11. My glass is still half full.
12. Realizing that some questions I really don’t want the answers to.
13. Being with my friends, who are all couples, and even though I am by myself they never make me feel like I’m the third wheel.
14. Unconditional love. I still believe in it. I know people who have it, and I know I’m able to give it. I also know that I am better at forgetting than forgiving. But I am able to forgive too.
15. Amanda letting me rant and cry for fifteen minutes then making me suck it up and move on.
16. Being able to just write and write today. I have finally realized that things could be alot worse and I will get thru this.
17. Knowing that I have made mistakes, but also knowing that those mistakes don’t define me.
18. Knowing that every time Charlie looks thru the books of MY old photos, he won’t be able not to think about me.

1. Being home after being gone too long.
2. Almost done with a huge job.
3. Me, Brandon and Luc.
4. Cash.
5. Lots of phone calls today.

1. Being away.
2. Being away.
3. Being away.
4. Being away.
5. Being away.

1. Alf marathon. Awesome.
2. Knowing this week will be uneventful.
3. $10.
4. Not leaving my house all day, everybody came to me.
5. Me and Brandon tomorrow.
6. My phone died a horrible death, but being cut off from the world isn’t that bad. Verizon tomorrow so I can be back in touch.
7. The new Bridgstone tire commercial is cracking me up. I needed a good laugh.
8. The picture of Charlie Gribble in this post is also making me laugh. (And a few other people too.)
9. Expressing myself honestly even though some people don’t approve. Sometimes foul language is necessary and sometimes it’s not. This time it was.

1. Base camp.
2. The best Fourth of July I have had EVER!
3. Chad, Amanda, Donny, Jaclyn, Brad, Angie, Mark, Tif, Fro, Amy & Donnie P and the Springfield tribe.
4. Fireworks at Pittstock. Better than anything anywhere.
5. New friends.

I was at Charlie Gribble’s house July 2, 2009. I was there for the second and last time to try and retrieve the rest of my belongings. Not to anyone’s surprise, the things that I actually wanted were not there. On the off chance that Charlie was going to do the right thing and let me have ALL my stuff, I had a present for him in my back pocket. If he would have given me the rest of my stuff I would have presented him with the gift. What was the gift? A DVD full of all the precious Jeep pics he so desperately wants. I was going to hand it to him on my way out if we had gotten to get all my stuff. But, because he is a blooming idiot and has probably destroyed all of the sentimental items he chose to keep from me, he will not now or ever be getting any of the pictures. Previous offer is off the table. You want a divorce, tough shit. The only way it’s going to happen soon is if Charlie starts telling the truth, gives me ALL the stuff on my list and coughs up more cash than the last offer. You want to talk about marital property big boy? You think that everything that is mine is yours and all martial property is yours, well I think the judge will think differently. Remember, I’m the one who technically purchased Sophi. I have the receipt from the wire transfer out of my account, receipt from eBay, and the paper trail to prove it. I also have all the receipts from all the parts I have bought. Try to hide her now. And that’s just the tip of the iceburg. Think of everything else that has been bought and sold in the last two years. I know that you still being married has not hampered your sex life in any way, but contrary to what Jennifer, your paid informant says, I have stayed true to my marriage vows.

So why don’t you just sit back and keep drinking yourself into oblivion every day. Play the victim. Poor, poor Charlie. He is so broke, but he still has a housekeeper. Get real. You are not fooling anybody anymore. Hope you had fun on your vacation taking up hay. And I wasn’t impressed with you cursing at my mother either. That showed what a stupid redneck you are. And I don’t believe for a minute that you have the cash on hand to pay me.

P.S. Don’t even think that you can control where I go and what I do. I can go to the bluff anytime I please. And any other trail too. You don’t control all the Jeeps in Southern Illinois, but keep trying. I’m glad you have nothing better to do with your time than worry about me and what I am doing.

Just so you know, after I hit publish I won’t think about you unless my attorney calls me, but I get so much satisfaction knowing that every minute of every day you are thinking about me. Even in those intimate moments with the whore of the week I know that you are still thinking about me. I know that you are bothering your poor attorney everyday with schemes and plans to try and frame me, go ahead. Keep racking up those legal bills. Or you could just do the right thing for once in your life and this could all be over. Think about it, stupid.

1. Charlie Gribble smelling like a brewery at 11 a.m.
2. Everything I own has a monetary value.
3. Fighting a good honest fight.
4. Trucks coming home at 4 p.m. in approximately 11 or 12 days.
   
5. Pushing back.
6. Always one step ahead.
7. A silver Durango. Glad I wrote down the plate number. Did you get a good look? Get a life.
8. Charlie Gribble showing everyone how stupid he really is.
9. I can go to the bluff any time I darn well please.

1. Being somewhere where no one can find me.
2. One red Jeep named Surefoot in Mark Williams’ garage. Exactly why are you hiding?
3. Just me and Brandon.
4. A good conversation beside a pool.
5. Sam’s pizza.
6. Today is June 30. I remember last year. I remember the year before that.