BirthdayFirst I have to talk about my birthday. It was last Friday and I was 39 years old. All my friends and me got together and had a ball. I’ll have a group pic soon, but for now here is me and Suzy and me and Angie. They made my birthday really, really special. I will definitely remember this year’s bash. Then on Sunday I went to mom and dad’s and had a fabulous dinner with my favorite cake. Mom even made two cakes so I could take one with me for the Superbowl party. I ate the last piece of cake for breakfast this morning and it was delicious.

But this post is really about advice-I need it. I need some guidance. You see, I have been alone now for almost a year. Yeah, I have had offers, but I have turned them all down. I wasn’t ready. I still don’t know if I’m ready now. But there is this boy. I have known him for a long time. Not closely, but we knew each other. In the last couple of months I have been reintroduced to him and we have been at many of the same places on many weekends. We’ve talked alot and I really think I wish he would ask me out. He knows about alot of the drama that has filled my life for the past year and I know about some of his baggage. I’m OK with him knowing. My life hasn’t exactly been a secret for the past year. When we’re together I always have a good time and he always says something that makes me laugh. But I can tell I make him nervous-not in a bad way. I think he wants to ask me out, but for whatever reason he hasn’t yet. When I’m in a room with him I catch him just looking at me. I wish I knew what he was thinking when he does look at me. I know he’s interested, he’s has said so to some of our friends. But, what’s holding him back? My question to you is: Should I make the first move and ask him out (I’ve never, ever done that before)? Or if I shouldn’t then how can I get him to make the leap and ask me? And to my friends who know me best, do you think I’m ready?

Oh a side note, it’s snowing here so I’ll be four-wheelin’ tomorrow in the Jeep. Can’t wait! The bluff has been calling my name but I’ve been ignoring it. I’m movin’ on and I have other places to wheel now. See, maybe I am ready.