The world as I see it.

Yeah, I haven’t written here in a long, long time. I have made many excuses to all my friends who have asked why I haven’t written. The truth is, I just haven’t felt like it. Physically and emotionally I am drained. Life is just too much right now. It has been for awhile, but recently [...]

A psalm of David.
The Lord is my light and my salvation—
so why should I be afraid?
The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger,
so why should I tremble?
When evil people come to devour me,
when my enemies and foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will not be afraid.
Even if [...]

The last seven days I have taken thirty steps backwards. My head is telling me one thing and my heart is telling me something else. I don’t know which one to listen to. I have been saying for two days that I was going to the bluff, and I have made excuses two times not [...]

I remember the very first time you called. I remember the conversation in your new Jeep on the ride to Marion on our first date. I remember where we went in the red Jeep that same night. I remember what I wore, I remember what you wore. I remember the next day. I remember what [...]

Mom, don’t read this, I mean it.
I know some of what is going on. I don’t know that I can help you, but maybe I can. You may have lied to me for the last three years, but it was the last three years of my life too. They may have meant nothing to you, [...]

by Vertical Horizon
I’ve got to be honest
I think you know
We’re covered in lies and that’s OK
There’s somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say
Never again no
No never again
‘Cause you’re a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You’re a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I’d let [...]

Finally, after months of questions with no answers I have gotten a few. I know the last three years of my life have been a total lie. When my marriage finally fell apart in January I told more than one person that there was something else going on that I didn’t know anything about-and I [...]

It’s Friday, need I say more?
Eldorado.
A very early morning phone call that made me smile.
New Jeeps, new houses, new jobs, new friends and new facts.
Bark for me please.

For the past week (well more like the last 3 months) I have been fighting internally with myself. I’m trying to cope. I’m trying to get over the fact that the last three years of my life have been a lie. How could I have been so stupid not to see it? Why could I [...]

Just stop. It’s not too late. Come clean. No more lies. No more frame-ups. Just quit. Have you convinced yourself that the lies you are telling are true? That would be sad.
You said the easy way or the hard way. My part hasn’t been easy so far, but not for the reasons you think. Has [...]