The world as I see it.

Yeah, I haven’t written here in a long, long time. I have made many excuses to all my friends who have asked why I haven’t written. The truth is, I just haven’t felt like it. Physically and emotionally I am drained. Life is just too much right now. It has been for awhile, but recently [...]

A psalm of David.
The Lord is my light and my salvation—
so why should I be afraid?
The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger,
so why should I tremble?
When evil people come to devour me,
when my enemies and foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will not be afraid.
Even if [...]

My life. Yeah, it’s mine. I have learned to live without something I never thought I would have to. I miss it every minute of every day. I can’t shake it. I’ll take my blame. I’ve made my peace with my part in it all. I haven’t forgiven myself, I don’t know if I ever [...]

Mom, don’t read this, I mean it.
I know some of what is going on. I don’t know that I can help you, but maybe I can. You may have lied to me for the last three years, but it was the last three years of my life too. They may have meant nothing to you, [...]

It’s Friday, need I say more?
Eldorado.
A very early morning phone call that made me smile.
New Jeeps, new houses, new jobs, new friends and new facts.
Bark for me please.

The past two weeks have been filled with a full spectrum of emotions for me. I really don’t have the words to express the emotional roller coaster I have been on. My mind is strong, but my body is weakening. As I get older I realize that my body can’t handle stress the way it [...]

Dear Mom,
I know you read my blog and I’m OK with it. You have known me for 38 years, you know me better than anyone. I also know that you don’t understand everything about me, but you know that I am not a bad person. I know you disapprove of some parts of my life, [...]

I have literally been working on this post for two weeks. I have written, written, then rewritten at least a dozen times. This time I just decided to delete everything and start over and just post whatever came out.
When I started this blog many moons ago I was in a different place than I am [...]

There is something so special about a high school gym—the old ones, the new ones, the ones I have never even been in. High school basketball has been part of my entire life. I love the feeling I get when I walk into McDougal-Evers Gym in Carmi. More than anything other than my parents’ house [...]

Tomorrow I have to take the kids to school, get a haircut, meet with TC, take pictures at the Harrisburg Homecoming Parade and then have Chas’ dog Sonic put to sleep. Yeah, I said put Chas’ dog Sonic to sleep. It sucks, and I’m pissed off that I have to do it, but not for [...]